Gli orari della specialistica mi stanno uccidendo.
Ed è la prima settimana...

Ho paura.
#_________________#

Ho finalmente finito questo libro.
Finalmente non è certo il termine più felice, considerato che ho iniziato venerdì sera prima di dormire, domenica ne ho dato una buona rastrellata per un paio d'ore - le uniche passate a casa - ed oggi, approfittando delle attese e file che pater mi ha fatto fare, avevo ormai dato il via, quindi in serata l'ho dovuto finire.

Mi ha lasciato una sensazione di malessere... orribile.
E probabilmente è per esorcizzarla, che scrivo.

( SPOILER! )

Per il resto non so ancora se consigliare o meno questo libro.
E' scritto bene, benissimo.
Ti prende ed in corsa ti porta fino alla fine, ti precipita nel burrone.
Eppure c'è questa sensazione che non è affatto positiva, al termine del tutto.

If I could go back in time
Wouldn't change a damn thing in my life
Love the dumb things we do when we're young
But the best is yet to come..

Go for it
Run toward it
Dive in head first
Live life with no regret
Put your heart out there
Don't be scared you might get hurt
But it's all worth it in the end
Cos the best is yet to come

[The best is yet to come - Hinder]

...è che mi aspetto di ricevere non di meno di quello che do alle persone.
Ed invece è così raro. Oh a parole si è tutti bravissimi eh, per carità, ma...
In realtà non ci si dovrebbe aspettare niente, visto che è questo che troppo spesso si riceve.

I want to go back in Sant'Andrea.
Even if there is too hot well... there's the sea... *___*
I'm really tired.

...even for just a few days.
These days in Rome, all alone, are bittersweet... Three years so and I've wonderful memories, full of dreams and emotion.
Bittersweet yes, 'cause there aren't all good memories, but... I dunno. Perhaps is 'cause I finally "digest" everything.
And this "night" - yes, It's four o' clock too lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! - was something I need.
I need another person but I'll see her soon.
And I'll fun with others XD
Yep, I love these days alone here, to choose the people with I want to spend my days.
It's a nonsense what I wrote but... I was good, and that's all.

Rivoglio Merlin.
Come ho potuto cancellarlo? Ho capito la dura legge dello spazio sull'hardisk ma!
E rivoglio vedere A walk to remember. Insomma, credo di essere arrivata a solo 10 volte... credo di averlo da qualche parte il dvd *-*
E vorrei fosse ottobre... ma ottobre con tutte le carte in regola eh, insomma, la laurea sottobraccio. E poi Parigi!
*__* Devo fare la muffa nelle champagnerie del posto! Nonchè fisitare tutta la città.
E st'estate devo convincere i miei zii ad ospitarmi per capodanno a NY. O meglio devo farlo sembrare non un autoinvito. Anche se in effetti continuano da qualcosa come 18 anni a dirmi di autoinvitarmi. Vabbè...
Voglio conquistare il mondo.
Voglio vederlo, anche. Insomma devo sapere che sto conquistando.
E poi devo fare sfoggio della nuova iconcina. Ma non sono puccissimi?! *____*
Insomma, devo perdere tempo.

...non ce la farò mai a rivestirmi e scendere.
Ma voglio un gelatoooooooooo!
Dubbio amletico, che faccio?

*ma che sto dicendo?*
*boh...*

...

*caldo...*

Inutile, la musica dal vivo è tutta un'altra cosa.
Ieri il concerto è stato *-*.
Anche se ehi, u.u per una volta che arriviamo in orario ovviamente loro iniziano prima, l'unico concerto nella storia dell'uomo...
Ma è stato veramente wow.
E' vero, nei club li senti più vicini gli artisti, ti sembra di poter allungare la mano ed eccoli lì e poi la musica ti rimbomba dentro, rimbalzando sulle pareti e poi dentro di te ancora ed ancora.
Ma ieri all'Olimpico era quasi commovente vedere tutta quella gente muoversi come un'unica massa, le braccia alzate a battere il tempo, sentire cantare tutti insieme...
E poi chi cavolo sono!
Cioè per quanto si possa dire che non abbia dato il massimo e si sia mantenuto buonino visto e considerato l'avevano operato da poco...
*___* chi cavolo sei Dave! Quando stava con l'asta tirata su tutto bello proteso a petto nudo XD ti domandavi ma c'hai veramente quasi cinquant'anni? Voglio vedere la carta d'identità!
E come canta...

*____*

Poi vabbè sono una demente e mi piace anche lo spettacolo in sè, le luci le immagini sui maxi schermi, una figata allucinante il tutto.

Unica nota "negativa" le pause lunghe, ma ripeto appena operato ci può stare.

Chissà come deve essere la scarica di adrenalina nel vedere tutte quelle persone lì per te, cantare le tue parole, seguirti...

E voglio un altro live, voglio altra musica.
Comincio ad apprezzare i concerti sempre più.
Se la calca ti permette di respirare è meraviglioso...

E voglio ancora Depeche! Odio lo stupido computer che mi ha abbandonato e si è fatto formattare.
Oltre a farmi perdere dati vitali, mi ha anche - lo stronzo - non ripristinato i driver audio!
*Sospiring*
Appena posso devo sistemare uff...

"Marcella, ma zero in matematica quanto vale?"
"...zero?!"
"Sicura?"

Mh.
Il relativismo mi uccide.


Edit: In effetti pensandoci... dipende dov'è lo zero.
Perchè 9 zeri dopo un 1 valgono un pò di più di 0... poi bisogna sempre vedere in che base si è per considerare QUANTO in effetti valga ma...
L'ho già detto il relativismo mi uccide?

Ragazze XD nel mio essere psicopatica in questi giorni mi è presa nostalgia perciò, rendendomi conto di avere solo una parte dei thread salvati e ricordandomi che, ad un certo punto, quando GJ doveva crollare da un momento all'altro ci eravamo divise i salvataggi pongo il quesito: QUALCUNA HA ANCORA VECCHI THREAD SALVATI?!.
Nel caso farebbe la mia gioia intrinseca, lo sappia.
Mi basta un avviso un messaggino qui o prendermi su msn che tanto io ci sono sempre e comunque, di modo che possiate passarmeli.
Mi stavo rileggendo un pò di roba che possiedo e non trovando tutto...
Pliz, fateme sapè.

L'altro giorno con quello stupido sing star - XDDD amato! - ci siamo ritrovate con Chiara a canticchiare una vecchia canzone di Grazia di Michele e...
E.
Non lo so, la adoravo, continuo ad adorarla, senza riuscire a togliermela minimamente dal cervello >____<

( Le ragazze di Gauguin )

Sto a mille.
u.u I couldn't find how tell this in English.
I'm so... *_____*
XDDD Today the exam was really, really funny.
My teacher is a bit mad... He thinks a thing and says another XDDDDD He isn't used to head an exam, other do it for him - he's one of the "head" there - so...
XDDD Today his right arm wasn't there, her little daughter - *__* only three months - was sick so...
He wanted to put us in order of booking XDDD But someone came late, so... "Every body up! You, between him and her... no no there!" XDD This three time, in the middle!
XDDD We have movie!
It was like some stupid game where you have to steal chair to the others! A girl in the end doesn't find his place XDDD.

The exam was easy - too much easy u.u;;; I'm sure I did something wrong 'cause it isn't possibile it was SO easy. After 40 minutes I finished... u.u;;; 20 minutes to check everything and... ready, go!
In my car like ad F1 driver XDDDD. Gneeeeeeeewwwwwwww!
Now I feel free and worried and excited and too much onther things togheter.
I don't think is for the exam... This morning I was too friendly too with perfect strange u.u And I'm not so when I'm all alone - neither when I'm with someone else but...
What's happening to me?

Ps: It's too much time I don't write in English, I feel unconfortable. >____< GRRRRRRR

Please, PLEASE!
Give me Criminal Minds...
ç_____________________ç Why I can't have Paradise?
That's not fair... u.u why a stop of two weeks??
Reiiiiiiiiiiiiid!
Penelope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!!!!!!

<--- withdrawal symptoms

I don't know why.
I listened it and I couldn't stop me to relisten, in loop.

( Little 15 )

Well, I downloaded the episodes a bit... scared? What if this third season will be live that awful second?
Well... I liked this two episodes.
*____*

( Review )

Now I want third episode.
From the promo I think it deal with future!Peter story.
I'm curious.
Really curious.

Today I saw Sasa.
It was like when we were just 15, or like that. Just as always - ok, before there wasn't rabbit running in her house but...
Drink a tea and chatting about everything, serious or stupid doesn't matter.
I love her, she's a piece of my heart, my dear Sabrina, always by my side even when I didn't want her, because what she were saying wasn't easy to listen.
It's pretty ridiculous said only "she's my best friend" because she's more.

Well, I hope I've helped her. She did, even if she doesn't know. I'm more relaxed than before.
I missed her XD.

And I have to said that too...
Now she - well, her little sister - has a rabbit.
Bunny, a delicious black rabbit. Our meeting was... lovely.

*Chatting with Sasa*
*Walking around her home*
*Turning and...*

"...there's a rabbit in your house..."
"What?! Ah! Yes..."
"...there's a rabbit in your house?!"
"Yes, it's Bunny"
"...Aw... lovely"
"Yep..."
"Keep it away from me"
"... ok, I'll keep the lovely rabbit away from you..."

*Ten minutes later I was patting the lovely rabbit, with Sasa laughing about me and my "thereisarabitinyourhouse" behaviour*

...ok ok.
I know the right proverb is "Otium post Negotium" but...
I'm so bored... so I'm playing Mahjongg.
It's drug for my competitive nature see the records near my score. A really low-level score.
I must find concentration yeah... and I'm not writing this post just to lose other time. Me?
Noooo...

...

My books are fixing me.
Too much formulas are calling me.
(It's a worrying picture in my mind).

P.s: I don't love this icon.
Really no...

I just want to understand what's happening.
I hope by the end of september, I'll know at least when I begin this stupid and unlucky third year.
And please, please, no semesters. Ok, bimesters - or that strange kind of bimester that I had - are pretty ridiculous. You haven't time to learn and remember what you learnt, but the only certain thing is that our exams, until september 2010, don't change. And six exams in just five weeks... I couldn't imagine the stress. I'm umbearable when I've just three exams in 4 weeks...
And of course, in that case, we have less interruption, just one summer session instead two.
ç_____ç July session is "the perfection". I hate september, I've left my brain on the beach.

Ps: I love the Host
*___* Little Wanderer.
Ian... my awesome Ian.
*________________________________________*
And I love my new icon.
I need new ones.
*plumbing the dephts of LJ*

Today surprises me... no, ok, today I surprise myself.
This morning, like always these days, I was swiming, but with Vittoria, a cousin I met just monday. My parents - no, the all family - said me to take an eye on her, to stay with her, speak, play, swing... well, do everything less go to the bathroom with her, to make her don't feel lonely.
She's very kind and talkative and she wants make a lot of friends. She seems to me older than her real age - just 15 - and I'm ok with her. I miss just a bit my loneliness, reading books and listening music on the edge of the sea.
Today we were walking in the water, when we disturbed a smiling family taking a photo.
Later - half an hour - the son came chatting with us. With Vittoria we were talking about him in that half an hour. I saw that she likes him, and after... for the first time in my life, I didn't miss what was happening around me.
He was scrutinizing her, and she was smiling him.
When Vittoria feel cold I asked her to remain just a bit more. And he just came.
XDDDDDD With the worst excuse - "Oh dear! Daddy! Finally you arrived! Excuse me, I'll come back soon, just the time to say hello to my father" - I left them alone for more than the time to say hello :p I spend more time swiming and chatting with him.
And after, when she came back... I did a plan to leave them alone another time and, in the same time, to help her to make other friendship - he's going to come back in switzerland saturday.
When I told her the plans for tomorrow and the day after, she simply replied "You're evil, aren't you?"
XDDDDDDDDD
It's a waste that I'm not good to plan for myself... well, it's a strange surprise I'm able to plan at all.
Perhaps she just helps herself... XD Tomorrow they'll share msn contact.
Like I said, she's really talkative and enterprising.
XDDDDDD
And I'm a surprised idiot u.u

It’s not finished yet but It seems for me.
There is another on 15th, but only because I’m a stupid perfect (on the wrong things) girl, and I don’t want a 24 in that exam. So I’m going to come back in Rome 14th (and I’m leaving Sunday… Yes, I’m an idiot).
But I feel free.
Holyday, yuppy!
Sun, cool sea and a lot of books. And thanks God ‘cause I’ll come back XD because I’m not sure I can survive with nothing else to do.
Well… of course I’ve something to do, but…
I don’t know. It’s just I’m exhausted and when I’m exhausted I want more thing to do – probably I’m a bit masochist…
I’m so tired, I want to stop, sleep and wake up late – very very late – in the morning and find something funny to do.
This was a busy month, and I hope will be satisfactory too.